this_morning daxle this is an alarming trend, waking up at 5 in the morning yesterday I struggled to get out of bed at 11 neurontin? sigh last night my lab TA yelled at me so I left in the middle and went home and hid in my room I planned on telling the head TA and trying to switch labs but I woke up to an apology letter from the TA in his sad, broken english and a letter from will saying it was a nice surprise that we were in the same lab (I thought so too, but I hardly talked to him last night) various achy pains I feel sick tired I can't sleep sad 020117 ... interpretation from guangtao li Dear Alyssa: I thougt it was you who left the 8B lab room. I don't know the reason. But I think you are unsatisfied with my attitude when I thougt you should let me check your appratus for reflux experiment before you started heating using bunsen burner. I apologize here to you for my attitude. I never think that it would hurt you. I am very sorry. But I hope you could understand me. I have 21 students in that lab section. I must be responsible for everyone's safety. If there is accident in the experiment, I will feel anguished. So I am very nervous, busy in the experiments. If my attitude is bad, I think that is because I am a little impatient. So please understand me, ok? I will try to patient in the next experiments. I hope we can be friends. With my best wishes! Yours sincerely, Guangtao Li 020117 ... daxles bad week note: I wasn't upset cause he wanted to check my thing I was upset because I tried to get him to help me for like 10 minutes so I followed the instructions in the manual and had it all right except for a wire mesh thing under my flask, which I didn't figure would work well since it was round bottomed, and then he came over and yelled at me and told me everything I did was all wrong and he told me to wait. He didn't even fucking yell at the people who hooked up their reflux thing wrong and shot water all over the place. He didn't yell at the guy who broke a flask and then tried to sweep it into the trash with his hand. But he yelled at me. Sigh. This is one of those times where my mom would remind me what a trivial kind of problem this is, and instead of listening I would get mad at her. 020117 ... SuicidalAngel18 This morning I woke to bitching again. Not unusual. So here I sit at 9:30 AM awake! I also switched my internet to Qwest so instead of paying $26 for AOL I'll pay $18 for Qwest MSN. I hope it's not shitty. 020117 ... anomalous when the jehovah's witnesses were at the door this morning i felt like i would spoil their fun by telling them what i feel about what they were telling me 050514 ... anomalous i asked myself what i've been thinking 050515 ... unhinged i woke up on your couch and took a good look around. i've got one week left in wisconsin and about at this time i'm looking around at everything and everyone i'll see for the last time. your glass was empty, so was the pipe. you took a couple of resin hits hoping it would be the same. i miss you already, so much it hurts. 050516 ... birdmad woke up early and in a sweat, the heat of spring's fevered, dying breath as summer incubates beneath its skin... fan drifting back and forth over me, cooling me slightly and the TV acting as my back-up alarm clock, blaring the usual noises 050516 ... anomalous i had a nightmare, as usual 050516 ... shiloh woke up determined to set yesterday and the past behind me 050517 ... thorn this_morning, i woke up and realized that there was no way i could make myself go to school today. so i stayed home. unfortunately, tomorrow always comes, and i always have to go back. 050518 ... tilt i rarely get up before midday. morning has largely lost it's meaning. 060321 ... tilt actually, that's not true. morning is when I go to bed afternoon is when i get up evening is when i start waking up night is when i work if i could just shift my routine 4 hours backwards, i'd be on the same wavelength as the rest of the world. again, that's not true. it would, i'm sure, take a lot more than sensible waking_hours to make me normal. 060321 ... raze i woke up with the "barney & friends" version of "ta-ra-ra boom-de-ay" stuck in my head, and listened to it on youtube to make it go away. it's still stuck in my head. WHAT HAVE I BECOME? (obvious answer: someone who wakes up with the "barney & friends" version of "ta-ra-ra boom-de-ay" stuck in his head, listens to it to try and get it out of his head, and finds to his horror it will not leave.) 131220 ... raze the song is gone, memories of better dreams in its place. it's good to be back in my own bed. 131221 ... raze i knocked over a standing ukulele with my knee and was more concerned about the falling instrument than the stumbling me. the ukulele didn't care about falling, though. it knows no fear. 140325 ... raze swearing at dogs and birds. 140326 ... kerry i woke up shaken by (yet more) nightmares in which i'm forgotten, rejected, or passed over. i could still see his contorted face and what it felt like to stand on the lawn just after it rained listening to them laugh at jokes i didn't understand. 220920 what's it to you? who go blather from