spoil
silentbob walk into a room ive never seen before
and the smell of the fresh paint takes
me back ten years and ihavent thought
about you in nine
suddenly its that last summer we had in
our new apartment, remembering the clothes you wore while we spackled the walls
it was our first summer away from our lives, our first summer in each others lives
we were so sure itd last forever.
Wed get in your old car and drive south
and just drive for hours because we never went that way
we had no idea where we were going and
that was the point
after that summer i learned nothing lasts forever.
you told me bout your old boyfriend,
how he'd get so jealous and threaten
suicide but feel no remorse in cheating
on you., there was one picture you forgot to throw away. i took you lit
ciggarrette and put it out on his eyes
and you just smiled.
it was around four weeks later when
you moved out and moved back in with
him.
I guess you expected more from me, and i just thought better of you.
I guess there were some things i couldnt
give you, like two black horses and one
red wagon.
i guess you just feel safer with someone that hurts you. i smell fresh
paint and the face
i havent thought about in so long is as fresh as the smell... I look up your
phone number, you're still in the book
under your same last name. i think of all
the ways you hurt me
and decide the knowledge that we might have something beautiful is enough for me and i dont call you to give you a second chance to break my heart.
Some dreams are just worth not spoiling.
010910
...
belly fire Before we leave remember to clean out the fridge, the food will...
You deserve to be ...ed!
Gabe, you gave me too much, you ... me.
She's a ...ed brat.
Wait until Christmas or you'll ... the surprise.
021224
...
kitchen bio-experiments scrap of food, too long left in the refrigerator
      way back in the corner


filmed in a thin layer of ice


but tainted by time all the same
021225
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