soundtrack_to_my_loneliness kerry sunny day real estate- what it feels to be something on the distant hum of the fan the sway of the curtains my breath alone 021007 ... bespeckled You hum of ecstacy and desperate longing You sigh with satisfied indulgence You breathe with carefree abandon, floating quietly,existentially, through faraway seas of blue ... You sigh the tune to my loneliness, and hum my melody of bitter acceptance. 021008 ... psychobabe Manson - Man that you fear SOAD - spiders Manson - number 14 on antichrist super. Pantera - cemetary Incubus - just a feeling Tool - patient APC - magnadarlin AAANNY PINK FLOYD MAN Nineinchnails - empty Tool - parabol Sevendust - angels song Metallica - nothing else matters Black sabbath - #4 on paranoid album Meredith Brooks - if we kissed Slipknot - Love Staind - Home Korn - For you Kittie - paperdoll DownII - learn from my mistakes more to be added later... 021008 ... silentbob sleater_kinney 021009 ... kill rhythm bright_eyes - the awful sweetness of escaping sweat bright_eyes - february fifteenth the_catherine_wheel - black metallic the cranberries - linger dashboard_confessional - screaming infidelities unwritten_law - seein red for_squirrels - van gogh love_spit_love - am i wrong the_weakerthans - left and leaving the_god_machine - purity jimmy_eat_world - cautioners 021009 ... blown cherry music that tears me away from you your absecnce leaves me free of happy distraction, and I can feel myself as I might have been 021011 ... 0of46 Stabbing Westward everything they have 021012 ... johnny shut the fuck up, psychobabe. you have no reason to be lonely or ever complain or ever feel sad, remember? you've been through that. 021119 ... jane the cure - lovesong the who - behind blue eyes coldplay - animals rhett miller - come around nick drake - pink moon led zeppelin - going to california third eye blind - i want you drill - what you are atmosphere - god's bathroom floor atmosphere - like today 021120 ... unhinged smashing_pumpkins --- soma smashing_pumpkins --- spaceboy ivet --- traffic ivet --- shelly ivet --- failure boy ivet --- stillborn 'i'm all by myself as i've always felt and i'll betray myself to anyone. don't kill me when i'm dead and gone. anyway you choose me it won't be wrong. foot in the face comes last. kick in the mouth is worth two in the ass. it hit her fast. my way burns. my way bleeds. my way's cracked and now all i do is peel. my way please. there's no saftey in dreams. i know best. i must show you. cleanse this fever from my head. come on lay me deeper down instead. inspiration's finally dead. a monument laid of my precious bed. i'm practicing for judgement day. i never made it past the clay. soiled spirit missing in the mail. it only hurts when i think about it. it only hurts when i go without it. it's my crutch, yeah it's my cane; i fail. come on over i insist. over do it make it fit. come on over. chomp the bit. i love you so much it makes me sick.' 021120 ... angie i have resorted to listening to mandy moore "only hope" i think i am past help. 021121 ... blue star Erykah Badu - Bag Lady Sarah Evans - Why Should I Care Bif Naked - I Died CDJ - Complicated Coldplay - Don't Panic Juliana Hatfield - Everybody loves me but you Jonatha Brooke - Room in my Heart Natalie Merchant - One Fine Day Sublime - 40 oz to freedom Macy Gray - I Try Mariah Carey - Always be my Baby (throwback to an earlier time...) 030121 ... jane i am kloot - morning rain 030121 ... blown cherry http://blather.newdream.net/f/faerie_kisses.html by Photophobe Almost everytime my guts are wrenched in pain and my face either trembling, or well beyond that stage, I realise that this is playing rudely in the back of my mind. 030121 ... DammitJanet Hayden - everything i long for 030121 ... belly fire August and Everything After No Need To Argue The Bends Aenima Everything I Long For Violator Bleach Nevermind In Utero 030223 ... kerry the mazzy star album "so tonight that i might see" 030223 ... argo Will Oldham, except he's alone to, so I'm not as lonely 030224 ... Sonya You Were Meant For Me - Jewel Let Go - Frou Frou The Blower's Daughter - Daniel Rice Brick - Ben Folds Five Foolish Games - Jewel Trouble - Coldplay Lonely - Akon I'm Not In Love - Olive Smile - Olive Don't Think Of Me - Dido Honestly Ok - Dido Don't Speak - No Doubt Asleep - The Smiths Pretty Girl (The Way) - Sugarcult Butterflies Instead - K's Choice When I Grow Up - Garbage Kiss The Rain - Billie Myers No Ordinary Love - Sade Anna Begins - Counting Crows My Favorite Mistake - Sheryl Crow The entire score of the film "Amelie" Better to have a life full of music than a silent one I always say. 050601 ... Sonya it's 3 am and I just realized I typed the wrong name. The Blower's Daughter is by Damien Rice. I knew something didn't sound write when I had typed his name that way. To bed with me... 050601 ... somenom the rain train turning the night into morning 050601 ... slothisily placebo - without you i'm nothing 050601 ... raze i like how more than twenty years ago kerry named what might be my favourite sunny day real estate album, and one i was listening to a lot at the time. i somehow never saw that until just now. lately, for me, it's been a lot of ambient and idm stuff. i think "patience (after sebald)" by the caretaker might be some of the loneliest-sounding music i've ever heard. sometimes you need to see your sadness held in someone else's hands to know it isn't going to crush you. (also, the johnny near the top of this blathe wasn't me. i don't know who that was.) 231021 what's it to you? who go blather from