ben
the swinger of birches
is
a
nice
person
to
talk
to
on
the
internet
.
he
used
to
model
for
abercrombie
and
fitch.
i
think
he
is
one
of
those
boys
that
is
interesting
in
a
boy
sort
of
way
.
the
kind
that
has
nothin
out
of
the
ordinary
to
talk
about
.
021125
...
cocoon
gets
to
have
the
honour
of
being
the
first
person
i've
cried
about
.
the
first
person
i've
really
wanted
.
the
first
person
i've
been
...heartbroken
about
?
honestly
,
is
trying
to
be
friends
really
a
good
idea
?
i
want
you
to
want
me
more
.
i
want
you
to
show
it
.
i
want
you
to
let
me
into
your
life
.
i
wish
you
werent
poly
.
i
wish
that
you'd
met
me
first
.
i
wish
you
werent
so
lovely
.
i'm
trying
really
hard
to
be
okay
with
this
.
and
somedays
its
fine
and
oh
so
easy
.
and
somedays
i
just
want
to
cry
.
and
i
keep
thinking
yknow,
there's
millions
of
guys
out
there
.
there
must
be
someone
else
for
me
.
but
it
took
so
long
for
me
to
ever
feel
this
way
that
i
wonder
,
will
i
ever
find
another
?
which
is
a
cliche ofcourse.
you
probably
will
.
i
probably
will
.
but
it
took
so
long
for
me
to
ever
feel
this
way
that
i
wonder
...
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what's it to you?
who
go
blather
from
