smashing_pumpkins silentbob and in our dreams we are connected siamese twins at the wrist 020404 ... lulie the world is a vampire. 020404 ... silentbob kiss and kill me sweetly 020404 ... spoons crucify the insincere 020404 ... spoons emptiness is loneliness, and loneliness is cleanliness, and cleanliness is godliness, and god is empty just like me 020404 ... Sonya Disarm you with a smile And leave you like they left me here To wither in denial The bitterness of one who's left alone Ooh, the years burn Ooh, the years burn, burn, burn I used to be a little boy So old in my shoes And what I choose is my voice What's a boy supposed to do? The killer in me is the killer in you My love I send this smile over to you The killer in me is the killer in you I send this smile over to you The killer in me is the killer in you 050623 ... unhinged *sigh* i feel very billy today 050623 ... Lemon_Soda I like the band. 050623 ... unhinged soma it is my alltime favorite pumpkins song 050623 ... raze twenty_years_ago, someone told me if you put on a smashing pumpkins album, stood outside the room the music was playing in, and closed the door, and if you didn't have it turned up too loud, billy corgan's voice sounded like a crying baby. part of me wondered if it was true. a bigger part of me thought, "if you need to get that far away to hear that he's crying, you're not really listening." 210918 ... unhinged i originally didn't care for the sound of billys voice either. but then i started listening to his words and was willing to look past the whiney voice 210918 ... tender square my love for this band is so great it embarrasses me to reveal it to people. it’s so earnest and represents a time in my life when i was too naïve to hide things from myself. i have a tattoo of their band symbol, the s and p inside a heart, on my inner right wrist in a henna-looking ink. i don’t know how long it’s been there; it’s faded some—maybe a decade now? longer? i remember my sister candi buying me the “mellon collie” double disc for christmas in the fifth grade; i remember my boyfriend scott buying me “adore” for my birthday; i remember the first time i ever went to ann arbor (where i now live) was to see them at hill auditorium when i was fifteen; i remember choreographing dances in high school to “porcelina of the vast oceans” and “mellon collie and the infinite sadness”; i remember having the tattoo artist play “siamese dream” as the needle embedded my skin. i saw them live for the second time a couple summers ago in a suburb outside of chicago with michael and it was really special. one of my favorite moments was when they launched into “the aeroplane flies high (turns left, looks right)” to close the show. james was back in the band for that tour. i’ve never seen them with d’arcy; melissa auf de maur was the bassist for “machina/the machines of god.” billy corgan has always struck me as having a great balance with his songwriting; he could be hard with the metal-tinged tracks and soft with his gorgeous ballads. i love it all. 210919 ... tender square just noticed that my screen saver is a photo of the band from the "mellon collie" liner notes. it's always this. 210919 ... unhinged i got the collection of b side eps from mellon collie for christmas one year myself but i think i'm slightly older than you so i may have been in high school...can't remember 210919 what's it to you? who go blather from