mother's_day lulie For Mother's Day I'd like to go hiking, where the path cuts across a brook and all the dogwood trees are blossoming. I want to look for chipmunks (those squirrels with racing stripes), Queen Anne's Lace, Cardinals & Finches. I want to feel my nose get sunburned. We can eat apples and oranges and the trail mix that we made in the morning (if I add some chocolate chips I wonder if they will melt). Later on I hope we can sit on the porch, my girls sipping iced tea and me a Sam Addams. This would give me more pleasure than a piece of jewelry or a dinner out at one of those over-priced, over-packed restaurants. 020508 ... bijou one year my dad got my mom a plant. it had flowers. it was a nice plant. i remember at some point they were discussing something while i was sitting at the dining room table, and my mom started railing on my dad, i don't really remember why. my parents NEVER fought in front of us. they didn't fight much at all. but my mom was really upset because she had asked for some specific thing she wanted for mothers day, and my dad got the same old potted plant and a card he always got every year. i was like fifteen so i rolled my eyes and left the room, but she was really upset. we've only since then really taken mother's day seriously, and it made us think twice about christmas too. i guess i still just got her a card this year, but hopefully it means more coming from so far away, from someone living on next to nothing. 050504 ... raze when someone who doesn't know me very well asks me if i'm getting my mother something for mother's day, i don't think about the fact that we haven't seen one another or communicated in any way in more than twelve years now. what i think about is the time i got her a beautiful arrangement of flowers for mother's day when i was sixteen years old, and she told me i should have used the money to get a haircut instead. no...i don't think i'll be getting her anything. maybe next year. 130512 ... unhinged (i will always have a lead weight in my heart) 130512 ... gja For the missing ones 160508 ... unhinged (my sister is right; it gets easier. but i dont think i will ever forget) 160508 what's it to you? who go blather from