torture
birdmad
this
hungry
ache
011126
...
Sonya
Torture...what
he
does
to
me
.
It's
what
I
feel
because
of
his
sweet
smile
.
Here
I
have
been
allowing
myself
to
fall
ever
so
happily
and
Fate
rewards
me
with
searing
drops
of
torture.
It
is
a
torture
that
invades
my
feminine
chambers
and
sails north
into
my
heart
as
if
it
was
en
route
to
a
sacred realm.
It
is
a
torture
when
I
can't
hear
his
laughter
,
his
sorrow
,
his
deep
words
of
romance
.
It
is
a
torture
to
know
that
our
story
hasn't
even
reached
its
climax
yet
.
It
is
a
torture
to
realize
how
much
he
means
to
me
and
how
much
I
have
already
given
to
him
without
his
knowledge
.
I
love
him
.
I
love
him
with
a
certainty
I
have
tasted
before
.
Maybe
it
is
the
certainty
that
is
the
torture.
Perhaps
I
am
tortured
only
by
memories
resurfacing
against
my
will
.
I
shall
not
fight
against
any
of
Fate's ploys.
I
would
endure
a
thousand
tortures
just
for
his
smile
.
If
only
he
knew
...
What
I
hide
is
my
torture.
Forgive
me
brave
one
.
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...
DammitJanet
i
torture
myself
to
no
end
the
pain
i
keep
the
horrible
memories
i
cherish
the
sick
i
thrive
on
i
suck
it
all
in
to
ruin
myself
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...
][
and
in
an
instant
,
the
tortured
became
the
torturer.
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what's it to you?
who
go
blather
from
