torture
birdmad
this
hungry
ache
011126
...
Sonya
Torture...what
he
does
to
me
.
It's
what
I
feel
because
of
his
sweet
smile
.
Here
I
have
been
allowing
myself
to
fall
ever
so
happily
and
Fate
rewards
me
with
searing
drops
of
torture.
It
is
a
torture
that
invades
my
feminine
chambers
and
sails north
into
my
heart
as
if
it
was
en
route
to
a
sacred realm.
It
is
a
torture
when
I
can't
hear
his
laughter
,
his
sorrow
,
his
deep
words
of
romance
.
It
is
a
torture
to
know
that
our
story
hasn't
even
reached
its
climax
yet
.
It
is
a
torture
to
realize
how
much
he
means
to
me
and
how
much
I
have
already
given
to
him
without
his
knowledge
.
I
love
him
.
I
love
him
with
a
certainty
I
have
tasted
before
.
Maybe
it
is
the
certainty
that
is
the
torture.
Perhaps
I
am
tortured
only
by
memories
resurfacing
against
my
will
.
I
shall
not
fight
against
any
of
Fate's ploys.
I
would
endure
a
thousand
tortures
just
for
his
smile
.
If
only
he
knew
...
What
I
hide
is
my
torture.
Forgive
me
brave
one
.
020122
...
DammitJanet
i
torture
myself
to
no
end
the
pain
i
keep
the
horrible
memories
i
cherish
the
sick
i
thrive
on
i
suck
it
all
in
to
ruin
myself
030227
...
][
and
in
an
instant
,
the
tortured
became
the
torturer.
030425
...
raze
i
never
thought
noise
would
be
the
cruellest
agony
the
architect
of
all
my
days
could
conjure
.
they
say
silence
can
drive
you
insane.
that
the
vastness
of
it
will
swallow
you
whole
.
i
would
sink
smiling
into
that
chosen
madness
.
let
it
mollify
the
maelstrom
of
this
idiot
machinery.
tie
me
to
an
unforgiving
chair
and
wrap
my
soul
in
mineral
wool.
strip
me
of
every
sound
i've
been
scarred
by
save
the
one
voice
i
couldn't
do
without
.
i
dare
you
.
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go
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