romance
splinken "do you wanna touch me the-ere? whe-re?
the-re? yeah!"

**joan jett and the blackhearts
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silentbob i will kill myself 010219
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bespeckled "Who needs romance when you've got love!" 030304
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Fido I went to France in search of romance
But came back with a basket of cloves.

But lo and behold, whiches of old,
The girls they rushed me in troves!
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not now roman, christ era 041018
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belly fire nose: button
eyes: beautiful
kisses: here. and here. and maybe here.
ears: to nibble
scar tissue: to finger
kisses: soft trail along the spine

our budding romance
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epitome of incomprehensibility To continue too_young_or_old, sort of.

Last summer, in immer_immersion (the German exchange class), a group of students were chatting. One of them, Nikola, would be a bit of a provocateur sometimes. This time he wondered aloud, "What really is romance? Isn't it just a combination of friendship and sex? What would be left if you took those away?"

...and my in-my-head response was, "Yeah, you're young, you haven't experienced it yet."

I mean, he *was* 19. And I don't think he was right, not because there's a set-in-stone definition of romance, but there's a set of behaviours and ideas that don't neatly fit in the "sex" and "friendship" boxes. Cuddling when it's not specifically sexual? Elevating mundane activities like eating into "dates"? Cutesy or flowery language (the flowery part drawing a bit on the old, Anne_of_Green_Gables-type definition of "romantic")?

But anyway, it seemed one of those times when I judged someone as too_young_or_old for something, even when age wasn't the main thing.
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raze it doesn't even exist in my dreams anymore. maybe that's as it should be. what's left to me now is someone i loved once reading a diary entry about them while the truth of what i feel is written upside_down on the back of an otherwise blank page their eyes won't travel far enough to find, and someone i never loved at all leading me nowhere, walking too fast for me to follow. 240628
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