i'm_on_fucking_fire leif Surely I'm going straight to hell. "I wanna get you alone..." "I'd love to save your lips." "I get chills when we touch." "I can't get enough of you." "You are driving me insane..." "I can't stop thinking about you." I want to die. I'm going to destroy someone. It might be me. Fuck I want her lips on me. 120627 ... lux i know exactly what you mean. 120627 ... auburn In an instant I could burn for you, too. My eyes are everywhere my hands shouldn't be. My lip is being chewed to fragments, and I hold my own hands to stop them from shaking. "maybe she's born with it..." Damn right. And maybe it's like a caged animal--asleep for so long, trying to keep quiet, only to be awoken with insatiable appetite. An appetite for sly grins, deep eyes, swollen lips, and endless curves. Join me in helll--we can be as loud as we want there. 120628 ... leif "I really want to kiss you..." Then do it already. Jesus. 120628 ... unhinged recently i was plunged into the reality that there are horrible consequences for allowing myself to be consumed. it's not just about me. that is enough to douse the flames. 120628 ... PeeT holy christ. 120629 ... lux i embody the cravings of your appetite. my hair is a raven. sleek and dark. i call to you, pleading - my skin is warm and olive. my mother mediterranean, my father we don't know. my eyes are deep and green, they smile when my mouth does not. why must you avert your eyes? are they preoccupied, charting out the lands where your hands would rather be? i will wait for you, until you hear me calling. you are a hunter, and you will come soon. 120629 ... leif When I returned my soul to God in exchange for the fire in my veins, I tore open my chest to reveal a space devoid.  I've spent each second in craving in passion in flame.  Last night I swallowed your every perfect letter and slept with them fighting over which space in me to fill. I know I could run to you. I could run until I stumbled and I'd persist into a bloody crawl. And when I arrive at your feet I'll be flames and dripping red and I'll cry until you let me burn you.  I want your oxygen.  I have legs that go on for miles. I promise to be your slave. I'll be your blood and bones. Take my skin. It's yours.   120630 ... lux he caught me in his web again. it had been months. i told myself i'd no longer be a fool. her hand touched my thigh, our faces closer than they'd ever been. i saw him on my phone, went outside (ironically at the flame) he told me he was drunk, parked outside my house. i ran. why? why didn't i take her hand in mine, bring her back to my flowered bed, finally going for it...? i let him capture me again i am embarrassed i am ashamed i am still unfulfilled. and now he's gone again. 120705 ... leif I'm playing with hearts. 'Just wait til I get you alone woman.' I can't wait much longer. I read a quote: if a relationship has to be a secret, then you shouldn't be in it. Fuck you, quote. 120720 ... leif "Your resistance to this plan is very unfortunate." " I've seen you sweaty. I know how sexy it is. Plus I'd just make you sweaty anyways." "You know there's way better solutions for that energy." "I'll take care of you." "I'm only teasing. It's just cause all I can think about is how many places in this room I want to kiss you." "Torture! Let me make it up to you..." "I can't help it. I want you here. I want to back you into a wall to put my hands on your waist and kiss you slowly." How much am I risking for a chance to feel my skin burn? 120721 ... leif When you fuel the fire you quickly learn that it spreads, consumes. And I am. Consumed. I'm dying all over to touch her again. To put lips to neck and tongue to ear. I could beg for her to pull my hair again. Now I know what is in Pandora's Box. And it's filling every place in me I've ever felt longing. 120727 ... lux she is sweet between the knees. 120905 ... lux [this is what i wanted, right? ] 121204 ... leif I asked myself that today. 121212 ... leif I nearly experienced blackout rage the other day. A whole new kind of fire. I felt agitated for days afterwards. 130110 ... leif The funny thing about fire...those embers how they burn, so much longer than you'd ever expect. Last night, we made a monument to the trees we burned when the rain fell last summer. How long will those hours of heart sustain me this time? How long until the orange dies away and the dust is left to linger... 130520 ... leif I`m still smudged by the residue of your ashes... 140621 ... lux she buried me long ago. 140627 ... flux "the way i feel i don't expect to go to sleep for a year..." 140820 ... past it feels like everything i touch burns up then turns to ashes in my hands. 140821 ... lux the fire in her eyes when she reaches towards me to touch my fucking hair 141111 ... leif Will I burst into flames in front of you on Saturday? I guess time will tell. 150202 ... leif Nope. It would appear I've burst into tears. 150208 ... lux this one will be my undoing. 150209 ... leif Does anyone have an extinguisher? Welp. 150217 ... lux i've been turned. and i hate it, but i crave it like the last taste waiting under my veins for the next one. 150218 ... leif 'I've never been more captivated by someone than I am with you.' 'I remember everything.' 'Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.' 'Nobody will ever be able to kiss you like I did.' 150218 ... lux i can only hope my kiss is, like a branding iron, a permanent mark of my tongue on yours. unforgiving, and unforgettable. 150219 ... leif Please don't make me want you too. I'm caving under all this want. 150219 ... lux my intensity would probably smother you. best to melt alone... 150220 ... lux "i want out of here. let us go back to the trees, or the street at night; i cannot focus on paper when my skin is buzzing with nervous excitement..." 160406 what's it to you? who go blather from