perhaps_perhaps_perhaps angelita things are more than what they seem. words whispered seem so transient, so ephemeral. but echo in my mind. (and no, it isn't just tinnitus). faces used to be so easy to read, places so easy to find. deep inside, I suppose I look for an easier way to see things. it isn't painful, not really - just...tricky. I can't even pin down what it is that has left me like this, rendered me perhaps-filled. I feel content, grateful...but lost. someone, somewhere's got a big magnet and is holding it awfully close to the compass in me. those ol' bearings are well and truly off lately. maybe - but no, I never liked that word. but always, only, ever ... perhaps. 040108 ... jane you won't admit you love me, and so how am i ever to know...? 040109 ... julia i did admit i love you, but you won't listen. 040216 ... falling_alone i think this is sang in the end song to the show "coupling" brit version mind you, not the awful american one. 040217 ... falling_alone sung* 040303 ... bandersnatch also a cake song, but they probably are covering it. 040303 ... jane i like the cake version. they're from my hometown. but still, check out the doris day version 040303 what's it to you? who go blather from