hard_to_say misstree i need to walk away for now because i need everything i can to go somewhere else there's a path skip, i'm in the middle of it, and my love, you will be my downfall if i let you. so i have to disappear. i leave you with parting gift because what is right now smells like death and i need to walk away because what my gut says scares me more than loving you. i will be back in some form. i wish it could be what it was but hope_is_hard and i need every ounce elsewhere. 060723 ... Death of a Rose why i feel lonely, why in the midst of my yearning i still stay awake for you, breaking everything in sight for one more kiss from you. it is why i leave you, because i know that without me you will be better and live better. because instead of me, your years of life will be happy. I do not talk anymore of you, no matter who asks. I do not walk with you in my dreams, they are heartaches in the making, but they are my heartaches, my pains, my windows. and because of this, it is hard_to_say. 060723 what's it to you? who go blather from