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unhinged .



we were driving up north court
towards the square
(where to i can't remember)
sometime after the only high school dance
a boy ever asked me to

my teenage brain
was thinking of that
how i should have kissed him
when he dropped me off


my dad told me
how
why
you were sick
'she isn't going to get better'

13_months_later
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you died


and_still
but_still
11_years_later
i stop to think about it; the
loss
of you





i wasn't at your funeral
i was busy performing
in europe

iris
big sunglasses
my violin
love

(words don't seem right
enough
for how much i miss you)

you died on a palm_sunday
devout
catholic
this year, the same date is again a
palm_sunday


it was sunny here today
things aligned
that weren't normally aligned
and_still
11_years_later
i felt you watching

my_guardian_angel
olga
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...
unhinged .


sometimes
i feel like
you are the only one here with me



and while i don't believe in heaven
i like to put you there
safe
watching
smiling
loving
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what's it to you?
who go
blather
from