i'm_not_going_to_cry late-night me i'm not going to cry i'm not going to cry i'm not going to cry again i'm not i'm not i'm not i'm not i'm really not. it feels so horrible, just like every other time, it's this odd despairing shit i fell again feeling, where i'm doing the exact same thing i did before and my eyes are why would i i'm not going to cry i can't believe i didn't realise i fell for him again... yesterday shit i don't know why i do this to myself i'm not going to cry he's not worth it i'm not goign to cry i'm not going to cry i'm not going to cry i'm not going to cry i'm not going to cry i hate this. 041221 ... blown cherry every now and then I can control it. But leave me alone for too long and my dry eyes, without fail, end up past their use-by date. 041222 ... Splinty She fades away into the misty distance, her back turned. I cant even shout for her as she strides away. I dont want to shout for her. I want her to turn round for once. But she never does. There's one difference though. This time I'm not going to cry. 041222 ... monee when i see the doctor 041222 what's it to you? who go blather from