thing_is mon i feel as though i have already typed this and it is like this with everything surprises are surprising but i keep waiting for the next move expecting worse and better hungry hungry i'm played i'm in a maze i'm looking for the food i've lost all ability to lose it is lost what spills i can't stop tasting nothing standing in a daze trance zombie nobody faces faces faces money magazines milk i'm a stranger everywhere i turn i think being is reason many reasons i don't know where i should be looking for the ground i can't find the sky visiting a play i'm supposed to listen to the director supposed to paint the background supposed to be the costumes glitter in every eye but i can't watch sigh contract i'm pollution flooding the earth i'm so sick more alive than i feel i love it all ] more than i know/ i. 031230 ... blah-ze you, and you, and the thing is, tou are, so live it! 031231 ... mon i know i already know i don't i 050930 ... unhinged i'm crazed over being without_you and i don't have the energy to hide it 100322 ... n o m i want love 110614 what's it to you? who go blather from