the_first_time
oren It was in the back of my Pinto station wagon with a beautiful girl during my junior year in high_school. 051030
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peyton crawling back to the first time
making it repeat
with someone else
but it's still the first time
the beautiful first time
nothing before
nothing after
until next time
when it's the first time
humanity expects
you demand
the first time
every time
i love you
remake your first time
make it with someone else
break our first time
because then
precious
it never happened
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emmi it's strange when things become too private for blather. i don't like the feeling. 060224
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shhh... its a secret those are what red is for 060224
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emmi does red show up in google? 060225
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Why... of course it does! 060225
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not saying... but you can use a new identity. 060225
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ivyducktwilightseto i'm sure I will be drunk

and i'm sure it will still be awkward and weird


i love my problems with intimacy... of any kind.
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peyton a couple of years ago
i drove by the place
of my first time

the house was gone
bulldozed.
it was just an empty lot.

I don't think I've every felt so certain that I could never go back.
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what's it to you?
who go
blather
from