testing_the_waters mon will i sink or swim testing the waters to someday dive in let life devour me entirely give_in glow like a meteor new seeds new hope dream new dawn 030917 ... sab testing the walls breaking the waters scraping the walls cry me a river while i wait, wait, wait. testing testing 1 2 3 free and clear still means more tests if they say that alcoholics are always alcoholics even when theyre dry as my lips for years then if im still being tested every 6 months how is that clear? assuming of course that i get that ive never been really good at passing tests and the opposite of passing is to fail fail fail failing fading away falling im falling falling to grey regretfully i guess i've only got three simple things to say: why me? why this now? why this way? with overtones ringing and undertows pulling away under a sky that is grey on sand that is grey by an ocean that's grey and ani 041019 ... birdmad landlocked and wing-clipped, i needn't worry I've been watching_the_weather and flying is not in my forecast. 041104 what's it to you? who go blather from