in_the_darkness sabbie i shall use this time as a confessional as i get down on my knees into darkness thank you father, for i have sinned my face is stained with someone elses thoughts yesterday i did think bad things yesterday i wondered who i should have been if i didnt have to be me. today i kneel in darkness, coloured and feel unfamilier hands in my mind. today i kneel, underhanded and whisper to the darkness my disjointed thoughts. 020806 ... sab the new cheese lies dreaming 060205 ... sab . . . . . . . and i wonder in years to come how the first and the second posts will appear to relate to each other. 060205 ... unhinged stars gather the light to themselves 190109 ... ergo hum and blast light upon all 190109 ... ergo hum of us? 190109 ... smurfus rex plans are devised promises are made oaths are broken vows are taken intimacies are shared secrets are created bonds are severed 190110 ... unhinged (with him i let my sexuality out into the light; i used to hate fucking with the lights on. now i find myself watching him with his eyes closed, waiting to make the eye_contact that hopefully says all the things my lips cannot) 190110 what's it to you? who go blather from