i_could_have
nomme all the things
i might have been
a force so powerful
weighing
burns
clouding the heart
leaving life frozen
030814
...
spoken i could have told you about the pepper seed wedged between you front teeth brother
the shard of black stark against your pearly whites
but then i would not have felt the smile linger so long on my heart when you spoke to your crush and she told you of it's egregious presence
your discomfiture warmed my heart and lifted my humor
i know i will be visited upon by retaliation but the payment for my snickering silence will be worthwhile
090420
...
In_Bloom I thought I would have
I know I shouldn't have
It is what it is
090421
...
unhinged fucked you
but i decided against it
chased you
but i decided against it


and still
she is mad at me
and playing high school bullshit games about it
instead of outright saying it
whatever people
i'll just stay home
if going out means
i get involved in shit like this

cause actually
i didn't ask for a ride
he offered
i didn't invite him up to my place
he asked
i didn't let him in my pants even though
he tried
so if somehow i ended up the bitchslut
in all of this
i'll just stay home
090421
what's it to you?
who go
blather
from