balm unhinged his hands on me his contented sighs the tone of his voice when he says 'i_love_you' the sheer amount of people that tell me they have never seen him this happy how embarassed he gets when i tell him how great he is that i can tell him those things that there is no noose on my tongue my heart spills out of my mouth and i grab onto him i need him close to me always 090702 ... unhinged (i think always changed to i need out when i realized that the bar was more important to you than i was; that your past would make our future stupidly difficult. that without realizing where or when, my leg jiggles uncontrollably. when i should be at rest, i tremble like a leaf) 090821 ... . . 090821 ... In_Bloom He says love has always been the most important drive in his life Probably because he's had everything else He says he wants love again but feels cold I know he's a liar because he tries so well to warm me and push me He says he doesn't know what he's doing I tell him he's gambling just like me that this time won't be like last time or last time or last time... 090822 what's it to you? who go blather from