on_growing_up bethany i dont know what a marriage is i dont know what a family is and i'm crying right now is there hope for me to give in to being happy for him to show me how and i thought about his face i wished i was the first one ever to make him go oh and i'm smiling right now so i avoid the real life think about being a wife but if i never have happy how can i lose it but if i dont make it with him how can i make it this is my problem and i only feel good crying right now because he wakes me up and how he grows me up and i never want to be apart never coz i feel like the person i know i am is 10 times better and nothing meant anything before coz you're right i never knew what i wanted til you woke me up and grows me up some more please 030106 ... bethany tonight 030106 what's it to you? who go blather from