life_is_like_a_lifetime_movie_damnit somebody [deep breath] i hope against hope no one i really know finds this and knows it's me. i hope these words will just hang in the computer screen forever, like they would in the air if i could find the strength to say them. of course, that sounds melodramatic and stupid, but i don't know how else to put it. how am i supposed to admit that i have a crush on my best friend without sounding like a dumbass? yes, she's a girl. yes, she has a boyfriend. yes, it's pointless. my life has such a crappily-written plot, i'm a horrible actress, and it's all so fucking sappy and obvious. it's not like i can do anything about it, except concentrate on the hot guy who sits behind me and forget i want to touch her face. in good movies, things happen for a reason. 051220 ... z see: making_movies_called_lives 051220 what's it to you? who go blather from