green_darkness god as_i_fall_over 011128 ... . . 021216 ... morphine. i will rest in green darkness while you kiss my eyebrows and tell me how much i mean to you. 021216 ... jane sometimes, when it's pitch black in my room and i still can't sleep, i can see shapes moving in the envelope of the room. most of the time they are green, sometimes yellow, sometimes just shadows that have moved since my childhood. back then it was a game; i could tell the shadows what i wanted them to do. now i have lost that control and the shadows just advance on me until i can't take it anymore and my rationale kicks in: things like this aren't real, there's nothing to be afraid of. i always wish most at times like that that i wasn't alone, that someone was there to comfort me or just hold me until i can forget about those shadows but things like that only happen when i'm desperately alone 021216 what's it to you? who go blather from