dream_blather epitome of incomprehensibility One page takes a long time to load, and I discover that's because it includes pictures. I go to "blather" and try to draw something, but I click the button in the corner before I'm done the sketch. I've only drawn one manga-type eye. I scroll up and down the page. It turns out I have drawn here before: a reasonable facsimile of Charlie Brown, only his arm is too long. I want to go back and edit it, but I can't. Then I see there's a list at the top containing the real first and last name of everyone who's drawn a blathe. My name is listed twice. Even if people don't connect it to e_o_i, I find this embarrassing. Why, oh why, did I give Charlie Brown such an out-of-proportion arm? I go to the blather box again, which now doesn't offer a place to sketch in but says I can upload a picture file. My dream changes before I can do that. 231211 ... raze there's been a wall_of_blather and a_fresh_start. there's been a blather_dream_book. more than one of them. there have been avatars and prayer cards. occasional changes in colour, layout, and font. some subtle. some jarring. sometimes everything looks the same way it does when i'm awake. but there's always some wrinkle to the twisty tangly web that catches me off guard. last_night i was reading a 'skite whose blathernym was two french words i couldn't translate on the fly. everything he wrote was in english. there was a button in the middle of one of his blathes. i mean an actual physical button. something smooth and round plucked from a shirt or a pair of pants. it didn't feel out of place at all. 240101 ... raze it wasn't blather itself this time, but a strange chatroom that was like an alternate hangout. everyone used a different name to hide their identity. i couldn't keep track of what anyone was saying. too many spam-spewing bots clogging up the chat. i suggested going somewhere else, but my words got lost in the flood. 240519 ... epitome of incomprehensibility I'm searching for a blathe I wrote. I think it's four letters, and I go to psyc, but there's also psych and psyche. A male blatherskite with a short name that I can't remember now offers these alternatives. One of them links to "ineluctable_modality_of_the_visible" and it's there, I think, that I wrote about a "purple pendant." Or something pendant. The second word is pendant, anyway. I do ctrl+f to search, but nothing comes up with the exact two words I want. So how can I tell I was talking about it? I need to actually read it, because I do mention something about a pendant, just not with those two words in that order. 240605 ... e_o_i I'm in a classroom with old wooden desks and I get into an argument about pencils. A boy has stolen one of mine. I'm also a child, at least at first. And this kid tries to justify himself by noting the shortness of the pencil, the fact that it's sharpened at both ends so it won't last long. The scene changes into blather. We're teenagers now. He posts a long list of short lines, all insults, and signs himself "theiums." And I think: hmm, there WAS a blatherskite with a name like that...so this guy's stealing names too. Now raze posts. On the burgundy screen appear squares of colour, like paint samples. This relates to his rebuke to fake-theiums, which is also a short essay on colour theory. I look up from my laptop and I'm still in the classroom, except I'm sitting on a wooden pew like in a church. Lindsay Ellis, old-school YouTuber and artist of various media, slides in next to me, returns the stolen pencil, and gently suggests therapy. Why therapy? Because I'm getting too upset about stolen pencils that turn into blather arguments. The weird thing is that this is comforting, though I don't feel particularly upset or that I need therapy at the moment. ... Real life connections? -The pencil looked like the one on my bedside desk. -I was watching a video by Lily Alexandre (YouTuber from my province) while I was making jewelry last night; she had an ad at the end about Nebula and she talked about a Lindsay Ellis video...which made me feel slightly annoyed because I feel it should be against her philosophy to put her stuff behind a paywall. But those are just my feelings and it does look like an interesting video (about John Lennon and Yoko Ono). -Anyway, I also wrote something on the other blather that was kind of a counter-argument...but more like a discussion than a fight. But in the dreamworld, I was launched into an encounter with dream_bubble_tea. 240630 ... raze lately i keep dreaming about the recent page being all out of whack. this time around, most of the blathes were invisible, the colour scheme was a little too dark to be right, and instead of "today" and "yesterday", the words that sat at the top of the list were "as" and "seen". 241104 ... raze red was the end of a hallway in my mother's house. blue was my sister's bedroom on the right. i stood and watched the words disappear. 241222 what's it to you? who go blather from