dreamworld jane i had this dream the other night. not last night, or the night before, but the night before that. sunday night. i've dreamt lucidly before, but the times it's happened have never been quite as planned. i have no manipulation of the world around me - i'm simply stuck there to wait and see what will happen to me next. that, or i get so excited that i'm lucid i end up waking myself up (into another dream. see also: false_awakenings). and these false_awakenings happen a few times in a row until i'm frightened i'm stuck in dreams, that i'm dead. so i stopped trying to have lucid dreams. but this one, on sunday - it made me never want to wake up. sarah was there, perhaps as someone i could tell they weren't real, which was a weird experience. telling someone they're not real is not something life prepares us for. i was trying to convince her that we were in a dream, and so i got down on my hands and knees on the sidewalk, and pulled the cement apart to reveal lush green grass underneath, a giant 20-ft. seam of grass underneath the sidewalk. she seemed sort of convinced; it didn't really matter. but i remember her saying she didn't feel well and was going to take a pill, like a tylenol or something. i told her, it's useless, "all pills in dreams are the same." you can take a tylenol but it won't have any effect on you. "i've had really good dream guides," i told her. if you want to feel a certain way, just feel it, and if you want to go a certain place, you just go there. so we decided to go to thailand. and in order to dream travel, you have to go to the hub of dream_travel. this was dream_world. it reminded me of some old western town, with all dirt streets and dilapidated buildings. but it was filled with lucid_dreamers. we were all collectively dreaming lucidly at the same time. and we all wanted to go somewhere. the map of dreamworld was pretty rudimentary but it had streets and markers where you would find phones. there was also a directory of guides (perhaps on the back of the map? i think it was just another sheet of paper). for example, if you wanted to go to thailand like we did, you would look up thailand on the guide directory. it told us to dial "5." the phone was like one of those 80s or 90s phones, with the long cord and everything, and its base was firmly attached to this old wooden table. this is all still out on the dirt streets by the way. and the table and the phone were covered in messages and stickers from lucid dreamers who had used it for years and years, like the ultimate bathroom wall. i remember picking up the phone to dial "5" for thailand and it rang a few times but there was a message - the guide wasn't there. the guide probably hadn't been there for decades. my directory was out of date. anyways, when i awoke from this visit to dreamworld i felt i had been to another plane of existence, that i had truly collectively dreamed. and i wonder if anybody else has done this, or if it's truly possible. can i meet you in dreamland? can i ever go back to dreamworld? i hope so. it was absolutely amazing. and i want to leave my message there, for dreamers in years to come. 110216 ... lg holy_shit jane. joy_city (i don't think too many others dream like this and have the ability to recall them in detail. i've tried to put some into words in the past only to be met with blank stares...) 110217 ... unhinged i need to wake up now please wake_me_up 110217 what's it to you? who go blather from