false_awakenings
birdmad
dreams_within_dreams
i
spent
ages
one
afternoon
trying
to
wake
up
from
what
seemed
like
several
layers
of
dreams
,
each
of
which
seemed
stranger
than
the
one
before
it
.
woke
from
a
dream
about
sex
to
find
myself
being
murdered,
which
woke
me
into
a
strange
hike
through
an
unfamiliar
mountainside
neighborhood
where
an
endless
succession
of
wrong
turns
found
me
lost
until
i
got
chased
in
to
someone's
backyard
bougainvillea
which
woke
me
into
an
elaborate
misadventure
involving
my
repeated
failure
to
bake
a
red
velvet
cake
from
scratch
until
i
ran
outside
screaming
and
got
water
thrown
on
me
by
somebody whose
face
i
can't
remember
which
finally
woke
me
up
into
reality
to
find
a
chubby
kitty
standing
on
my
bladder letting
me
know
i
needed
to
get
up
and
go
.
the
next
day
i
watched
Inception
for
the
first
time
and
nearly
messed
myself
over
the
level
of
coincidence
at
play
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...
raze
i
had
my
first
dream
within
a
dream
when
i
was
eleven
or
twelve.
i
was
sliding
down
a
waterfall.
it
was
loud
and
vivid
and
terrifying.
there
was
nothing
dream
-like
about
it
.
i
was
going
to
die
.
just
before
the
current whipped
me
into
the
plunge
pool
,
my
sister
(
who
was
about
four
at
the
time
)
smacked
me
in
the
back
of
the
head
with
the
silver
latch
plate
of
her
carseat seatbelt.
i
woke
up
next
to
her
on
the
bench
seat
of
my
stepfather's van.
she
had
this
really
grown_up
expression
of
disdain
on
her
face
,
as
if
she
wanted
to
say
, "
serves_you_right
for
dreaming
of
waterfalls.
you're
lucky
i
was
here
to
save
you
."
i
rubbed
the
back
of
my
head
.
i
was
grateful,
but
did
she
have
to
hit
me
so
hard
?
that
shit
hurt
.
then
i
woke
up
alone
in
my
waterbed
.
it
took
me
a
minute
to
work
out
that
it
wasn't
another
false
awakening
.
my
fingers
found
the
back
of
my
head
just
to
be
sure
.
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