it_occurs_to_me sab in rapid sucession that im such a fucking martyr and it makes me so angry inside while on the outside i bow gracefully out, i dont fight i say - its ok i understand dont worry about it and then it occurs to me that now, again im paciently waiting for something for someone i sit back on my heels and leave it to someone else i never fucking learn and thats hard enough to accept without, on top, the_worst_thing_in_the_fucking_world angry, angry girl 050620 ... the sanity assassin at the driest, most base scientific levels the strange old buddhist who used to spam us was not wrong the loftiest stars the lowest pile of shit and all of us in between are all just different configurations of common atoms i would have despaired of this once but despair was too often my natural state in those days now it's a warm chuckle tell me suck insight isn't weirdly comforting and_i_will_show_you_how_wonder_you_are 210829 what's it to you? who go blather from