to_relax sigmund I'm on vacation, that's what I keep telling myself. Every time I decide to check the status of circumstances I find I was only dreaming again. That's when I get paranoid and can't relax. Things don't seem to be the way they appear and I find people communicating with double talk. It's scary and then again also pitiful. So who should I be next time? I figure I'm constantly attempting to balance myself between realty and madness, I don't know how long one can remain in such a position, I would think one would eventually go over the edge of sanity and forever be lost in a sort of twilight or dementia. That's what it feels like. I've discovered that ignoring people by now is the only thing that helps. 040509 ... kookaburra i cant relax... are you kidding? do you see all of those people on the street. one starts laughing...are they laughing at me. iknowtheyareiknowtheyare i must stop it, but how? i must make it known that i know of the joke... and so i must stay vigilant.. 040509 ... unhinged sandalwood 101005 what's it to you? who go blather from