light_is_awake hsg And I will give up my position to see yours and th_is_love 101215 ... perfectly_chaotic It is light outside and, yet, still, all I want to do is to stay in bed, sleep and cry... I wish I was not here all alone. Yeah, there are people outside these white walls, but I feel as if I must always be putting on an act when I am talking to them. This play in which I am pretending to be happier than I feel. Otherwise, they might get upset and then I will only feel worse. I am so very tired of holding up this facade, of wearing this camoflauge, of putting up this veneer over my sad face. I think I may try to sleep until tomorrow when I am forced to leave my bed again to do what is necessary. Until the next act of the play begins. 101215 what's it to you? who go blather from