ivan nonlucid seen him twice, ever quiet guy, seems... different which is rare enough to be interesting typical conversation ... something random "no way..." stares at me blankly for a while, stare him down "actually i'm not sure... you know, they say you can't be sure of anything... " trails off and then he sings 'girls just want to have fun', excitedly he's so cute 050904 ... nonlucid and i was acting like an idiot 050904 ... nonlucid but seriously it's that feeling again the i-love-ivan feeling which feels the same as i-love-s and i-love y (but you can tell he's not crucial because i blathered his actual name unlike the others) you can tell it's passing fancy, and that it'll be gone tomorrow from the style, the lack of severe angst and depression you can tell it's partially just because I like the name ivan and maybe because he's the type of person who his friends yell "IVAN!!!" for when he walks quietly into a room i guess i just like his style, really slightly offbeat and all 050904 ... nonlucid maybe it's just a symbolic_crush abstracted feeling or something 050904 ... no reason is apparently a stalker 050904 what's it to you? who go blather from