it_doesn't_really_matter anne-girl and people don't really care all that much about what i say so why do i worry? 041217 ... realistic optimist desire and expectations are a bitch. people spend a lifetime working to have moments out from under their proverbial thumbs. as far as i can tell, desire and expectations are the cause of all worry. i can usually only maintain moments of peace absent from worry during infrequent brief moments. sorry i keep blabbling a bunch of philosophy after your obviously desperate pleas. if i could hug you instead, i would. but this isn't hippie love-in, it's blather so instead, i blab on and on. if i was a magician, i would perform the trick of caring deeply and dancing the spears with the heart of a love warrior, rolling with the punches that inevitably come. unfortunately, my wand is on the fritz. you can borrow it, if you want. i'm going to see about making a new one. 041217 ... anne-girl thinks philosophy is cool 041217 ... realistic optimist good, then i don't feel so much like i tracked mud uninvited on your blather carpet. 041217 what's it to you? who go blather from