dreams_of becclebee and what if i get this and its not really what i want what if it is different but that doesnt mean bad just different what if my expectations are wrong if my dreams are unrealistic if its harder or sadder or painful what if i hate it thats the problem with dreams they down play the bad and focus only on the good what if i push so hard for this that i miss what was meant to be whatif i end up with second choice am i strong enough/ tough enough/ hardy enough to actually get my dream and survive 030409 ... thoughtful becclebee am i actually afraid of my own dream 030409 ... becclebee and then i think, i have made it through this i am still alive i am strong and i am loved and god has big things for me here is not all i am meant to be i am bigger than this the future gets exciting the closer it gets dreams do come true 030413 ... sabbie "here is not all i am meant to be i am bigger than this" becclebee, your words catch in my throat like little shards of a clear clear day. thank you babe. 030413 ... three words like_a_bleeding_cloud long_lost_constitution_found dreams_of 051104 what's it to you? who go blather from