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unhinged not all that surprising that in this land of blue hedonists this word hasn't existed until today 081029
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hsg sleep_deprivation 081111
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In_Bloom Cuddle 081111
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unhinged we've been sleeping together for over a month, but last night was the first night we cuddled. he seemed surprised when i sidled up next to him. 081111
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camille touch 091010
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suppose suppose suppose Stale, dry, desert hot, line drawings of mirrors, vague images, boney animals, no corpses no tombstones no love and all the money in the world. 100620
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does it ease the pain? This depravation of love,
deprivation of closeness and everyday intimacy,
stirs in me a need, a desperation for lost loves.

Would that I could erase such memories from my mind and not ever have known such pleasures of which I am now deprived.
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Michael waking up to empty rooms day after day, denying myself nicotine, sex, love, alcohol, heroin, cocaine, simply because it all had previously ruined my life.
I did take up nicotine again
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