in_the_snow
unhinged lost_and_found
in the thaw
it all comes back


i saw a boxcutter
half hidden
near the dumpster
on the edge of
the walmart parking lot and the gas station
on the corner of
holton and capital
and my echoing_thought
boomed in my head

earlier just that day
i rubbed the scar_garden
thinking_of_you
the life that led me there



and part of me wanted to
stoop
and pick it up
090210
...
unhinged in_the_cold
somehow it is easier
to feel cold
frozen
broken


watching everyone i loved
pass me by
stepping_stone
stopped for a moment
on the pursuit to grander things
when they were the grandest thing
in my life
just_friends
of the superficial variety
someone to get drunk with
someone to recruit for the newest project
someone to add to the contact list
another number in the friend column


unhinged_frankless
without the hugs
it all just bleeds right out of me
nothing
no one to hold it in
it all just bleeds right out




alienated
trapped
broken
the only understanding in my life
words on a screen

(once again the feelings of spring
only serve to
highlight the dark in me)
090210
what's it to you?
who go
blather
from