diminished unhinged how you changed me diminished by the fact that you left me but i'll let you think that it was your idea the urge to choke you was strong this morning my vulgar belligerence hung over from the alcohol i used to drown you all that warm meltiness hardened to violence i'm only trying to get that softness back sometimes days it's a struggle dear not to hate you the change diminished by abandonment i'm only trying to stop the softness from taking over enough to dial the phone too stubborn to assimilate too stubborn to let_go love diminished by abandonment 040807 ... peyton beautiful 050928 ... unhinged . shrunken 121202 ... unhinged like the year i went to lake michigan to light a candle, the_day_you_died , and even in the wind it stayed lit. i turned back to look, and the flame made smaller by the distance, was still there. burning, going, illuminating. my light feels small shrunken far away but now i know it's still in there somewhere 140121 what's it to you? who go blather from