seagoat Tess oh, if you knew, you would know how to climb a mountain under the churning sea, near the reef, and with the current. but there is enough merit in remineralizing a quixotic nutrient or two that i don't bother with the expecting the most serious of endeavors. or maybe i do. i don't know. 040303 ... knot meat i never really thought seriously about doing myself in. of course, that was when i thought i was of more use to people alive. or thought i'd cause less pain by not disappearing. when you start to wonder whether or not your staying alive will cause more pain than your killing yourself, is it really still selfish? i mean, it's already established that you're mostly a selfish person. couldn't it be seen as less selfish in a way? 040304 ... tough places at which point, you change, in a way that's only given on the top of an underwater mountain. if you were to undertake such a thing, it might be torture. or it might be love. to me, it is not death, but rebirth and like he believes, it is the ulimate generosity. it a tough kind, though, with no guarantees... who knows what's to stay what's to go? you do. 040304 what's it to you? who go blather from