choose_so_hard daf i make me choose so hard, lord between you and i not in my right mind but in my mind instead choosing between you and the appearance of sanity i make me choose so hard when such a simple choice it should be until i think about it and when i think about it i talk myself right out of it all along telling myself how clever i am for saving the world or myself or my friends by turning from you and embracing my thoughts instead i do wonder why i choose this thing this karmic suicide self-inflicted tail swallowing despair over hope pain over happiness want over satisfaction emptiness over completion me over you i wonder why i can't crawl up these steps invented for me by me let alone walk does a being on its belly deserve entrance anyway? today i crawl when i used to run and wonder why i ran at all wonder why i HAD to run truly am i this afraid? must i make me choose so hard? 150902 what's it to you? who go blather from