always_searching gay gizmo the darkness deepens around me silence there is nothing left gone are the days of innocence i want i need i cant have what i want what i need so cruel so tourcherous what life is this? it cannot be mine its not supposed to be like this i want more i crave more greed is blinding jealousy is deafening vanity is suffocating me 021029 ... Photographed by the human eye When i was young. something was taken from me. ever since the age of seven i have been searching for it and it feels like i will never find it again. Something so dear to myself, something so ... lost. always searching for a door any door to excape this pain and darkness of depression. i just want you back. but you are lost for ever. 040619 what's it to you? who go blather from