staring
raze deep into the eyes of uncertainty, plotting your next move. 130109
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raze at the dust that sits atop a dormant old laptop like a fine mist of snow. 130110
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raze at a painting, allowing all of its possible stories to manifest and then scatter like soft-focus dreams too elusive to hold onto. 130112
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raze at grass that refuses to die. 130113
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raze at an impenetrable blue ceiling of a sky. 130116
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raze at crystalline white powder that fell from the sky. 130121
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raze into darkness. 130129
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raze into the face of fear, and pulling the trigger to find the gun was loaded all along. and then thinking, "what did i just do?" 130204
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raze through an open door, at an empty hallway. 130206
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Pilgrim More of a Gaze Really 130206
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raze into the deep red sea. 130304
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Pilgrim At the Damn_captca 130304
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Pilgrim With failing eyes scratched by the sands of passing time bearing the Retinal Scars Earned from Staring into the Naked Light of the Sun. But You learn to work around Things. 130304
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raze (wow. i like that, pilgrim.) 130304
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Pilgrim If only this was more Metaphor and Less Fact. 130305
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raze at puddles silently being filled. 130311
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raze at a container of smokehouse almonds, trying to resist. good god, i could marry those things. 130319
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raze at the wall. 130328
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raze at the shadows just a little light can cast. 130402
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raze at a failed reflection. 130424
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raze at two thirds of an unmade bed. 130527
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raze at the collarbone of another friday, jutting out of the day's sluggish body. 130531
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raze at the nape of ennui's neck, soft, hairless, perversely inviting. 130604
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raze at the bubbles forming in a pot of boiling water. 130703
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unhinged i went to take the trash out and there were two b boy types sitting on the ledge waiting for something, someone. the one with the tats turned to watch me walk away, his eyes squarely on my ass.

i almost didnt go back out with the compost. it makes me feel gross and afraid when guys look at me like that now.


the irony of being stared at like a piece of meat while i was taking out the trash was not lost on me. 		130704
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raze at a moth the colour and texture of some regal tablecloth. it's been rooted to the same spot for at least three days. 130819
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raze at a glass of meatloaf grease. it looks like something that's trying to be root beer. 130902
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raze in the mirror at my own tired eyes. they're very green all of the sudden. 130919
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raze not now, but last night:

watching the macbook's sleep indicator light do its slow blink, then holding a half-full bottle of water in front of it, mesmerized by milky moments of glow. 		131007
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raze at the half-moon in an_oil_painting_sky. 131011
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jane back at me, the blue in her eyes seemed to deepen. i'd noticed them before, but not like this. it had been so long. the curls angelic around her face, i wanted to touch her so badly. what's the next step? where are my boundaries?

she proved to me she has my back. and i proved to her she has my heart. 		131011
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raze at a dark screen become a mirror, then a dark screen again with the loss of light. 131203
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raze at something soft and smooth and pale. 140322
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raze at a cloth grocery bag two shades of green, as a little bit of sun makes the front face look like it's glowing from within. 140324
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raze at a cream-coloured shirt that probably hasn't fit me in eight or nine years. it's a nice colour. 140326
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raze at glossy wood, remembering how dust formed a face there once. 140428
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raze at a nail that will probably never grow into anything that looks normal again, but it does what a nail is supposed to do, so if it wants to curve in ways the others don't and look a little wonky, well, that's its business. 140809
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gja straight ahead 140809
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raze at the place the moon would be if i could see through the ceiling. 140814
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flowerock at the actual moon... huge and peeking out of the sky. so cool like she s wearing a sideways hat and not caring, because she really is THAT cool... or a glowing pregnant belly full of stars... is she winking? I think she is definitely smiling. 140814
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raze at a face that's changed too much and not enough. 141230
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raze at a picture of neon yarn. it's hypnotic. 150114
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flowerock Mmmm.... yarn_porn 150114
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raze at new sheets, thinking they're a little too silky. they haven't lived enough yet. 150624
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raze at the width of the wood. the curve of its hips. 170112
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raze at the past through the prism of the present. 170626
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raze at a hair tie that's curled itself into the shape of a heart. 211002
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raze at the morning, cold and damp and reluctant to give up its secrets, but no less compelling for it. 211030
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raze at an old brown extension cord that's contrived a way to form a figure eight on the floor. 220126
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raze at the silver plate that covers the buckle on my belt, its sideways stance distorting its features so it resembles a very surprised bearded robot face. 220307
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raze at veins and tendons intertwined. 230410
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