irony belly fire How long have you been there? How long have I turned my eyes over you and not seen? How many times have you stared me in the face? I can only be sure that I see you now. But now I see you everywhere. And we pretend not to see each other. 020804 ... no reason i find that often interactions with others who are completely different from you are the most effective ones in helping you to get to know yourself 090808 ... no reason the most approachable never seem to approach 090808 ... no reason the person who cares most about me is the one who tell me to do more for myself, yet if i did that, he'd be the one most hurt by it. 140601 ... erg *who tells 140601 ... no reason in an attempt to get my mind off other_you and potentially meet new people, i decided to create a half-assed okcupid profile. the first sentence said that i might delete it the next day, and that i kind of hate dating. and i got something like five messages in three minutes. i was amused. then i deleted it about two hours later. 140804 ... gja I believe - The greatest irony is the lack of genuine irony. 140806 ... epitome of incomprehensibility At a protest against the Dakota access pipeline, run by indigenous people, the police pushing the protesters back said, "You're trespassing on private land!" Hm. (It was in a Facebook video, and it had someone famous in it - actor Shailene Woodley - which makes people all of a sudden more interested, but at least she's doing Being Useful in the World stuff. Voila: https://www.facebook.com/ShaileneWoodley/videos/624178791076838/) 161023 ... e_o_i OF COURSE I meant that the protest, not the pipeline, was organized by indigenous people. Yay for unclear modifiers. I was just laughing inwardly over a student's similar mistake, and now this. Is that irony or something else? Karma (in the popular sense)? 161023 ... nr i'm self-aware and know myself well, but it's difficult to believe good things about myself unless they're believed by others i care about. or if i think i possess a good quality but then it's argued or questioned by someone else, i doubt myself. 200621 ... e_o_i Hard same, as the kids (may) say. 200621 ... nr today my doctor was feeling sick. "that's why i'm wearing a mask," he said. uhhhhhh. 220804 ... nr we both were shy and quiet growing up, and we've both retained some feeling as adults that we need to fill silences so not to be deemed boring. we both are calm on the outside, anxious on the inside. we both wanted to pursue careers in psychology. we both like similar dive bars, shows, comedy, music, and movies, and are both sun and beach people. neither of us like sour or wheat beer. we both love to sleep. neither of us like to know what time it is in the middle of the night. we both have had sinus and stomach issues. we're both on the same brain drug. we're both overthinkers. we both love to travel and are up for adventures. we're so similar we're basically the same person, yet you don't feel enough of a connection. 230129 ... epitome of incomprehensibility This evening I reinvolved myself in an old hobby, going to the monthly meeting of the local Finnegans Wake reading group. I was excited because it was their first time having it in-person in Westmount Library since the 2020 lockdown. For months now, I hadn't gone, blaming the online format for my lack of motivation. So yes, today I attended. Over Zoom. (Thanks, tiredness.) 240320 what's it to you? who go blather from