questioned raze two nights in a row now i've seen you in my dreams. first you told me you'd noticed a change in me since i lost weight. when i asked what that was supposed to mean, all you would say was that i seemed more punk rock to you now, with an emphasis on the rock. i pressed two buttons at the same time on a cassette deck and watched the tape stutter. i stood a stack of cds on a bed of stones. i made my sister cry. last night you followed me into my bedroom and stood beside me while i swore at my sock drawer. i wanted to grab some money before we left the house. in case we stopped somewhere for a drink or something to eat. i found five envelopes. they were all empty. "you must not know my name," i said. you asked me if i was going out wearing what i already had on. as if the darkness demanded something better. i haven't seen you in eight years, and this is how you come_back to me. i wonder if you'll be there again tonight. 240805 what's it to you? who go blather from