injurious_assumptions misstree you'd be upset if i'd slept with him, annoyed that it had happened to me rather than you, that you feel you never win.. you're still upset, even though i didn't, because i didn't give you anything to be upset over. there is no winning, with you, with him, with any of it. i'd stop trying, walk away, if i weren't so wishful for a person to perch with, so convinced that somewhere, if i search... but even if i found the next prince charming, i'd lock him right out of the tower, leave him to find the next princess on the list. i stay defensive because of attitudes like yours, because if i do i'm wrong and if i don't i'm wrong, because there is no answer that doesn't hurt except the one compromise i won't make, that i resent any who ask. i stay defensive because i am hunted. i stay alone, locked safely away, because of you. 061220 ... [not hiding] [just because everyone thinks it doesn't mean we have to make it true] 061221 what's it to you? who go blather from