unkeepable shiva this is what she calls herself. it isn't true. but how can i make her see? 011030 ... kuru I am on a new mission to say nothing that is not positive, and to say nothing to him at all. Just to see if I can do it. To see if I am really the erratic manic-depressive he says I am, of if it's just he who makes me crazy. 011031 ... ClairE The way you feel about someone. I can't keep wanting you the way I did, I can't keep my sanity either. 011202 ... whoknows i cant keep you. i never wanted to. youre were never my possession and i was never yours. we were good that way. but you thought i wanted more. how could you ever have believed that? i thought you knew me. 011203 ... .fallen seeing this word caused a lump to catch in my throat ..... my eyes prepared to let the waters flow .... body tensed up .... the shadow of a cringe ... the cringe that changed me forever .... this word paints a monstrous picture for me and yet I can't seem to look away .... shudder .... it let's the difference between alone and lonely get blurry .... such a cruel ... cruel word for inspiring this reaction ... 040227 ... LS To be keepable, one must be able to keep in return. 050711 what's it to you? who go blather from