remembering_who_i_was xadle in a word: painful I feel compassion for my former selves. I could only have been what I was. I could only have done what I did. The only useful reason to reflect on the past, is to improve my future, and my future impact on the world. And so, I don't think I am making a mistake by not pondering it too much. The lessons are not lost just because I don't waste a lot of time thinking about the circumstances by which they came to me. At least, I hope not. I'ma live on that assumption for now, because it seems to be serving me well. 140202 ... flowerock I'd like to regain some of who I was, the good parts, put roots back into them and continue to grow more good parts, drop the bad parts like autumn leaves to burn in a fire that keeps us warm and smells like change. 140202 what's it to you? who go blather from