at_the_moment_____'updates' re_alisma confused about myself. others leave me out ok I leave myself out and the outsider of the outsider pattern continues and continues. On the other hand, assertiveness with no backups or references is just creepy, on some level, isn't it? Big Sigh. Also, to keep my karma tight, I kinda think I should live on about 2K at MOST, and save about the same, and if happens to be more, due to some miracle, it should go to charity OR some bigger-than-me cause. Living beyond that is not warranted by me in whatever half-incarnation I'm currently inhabiting. Thoughts like these are not necessarily crazy; they're just what I get for not watching TV and not having boyfriends and being on the grandparental sick watch and feeling like there is so much unpaid work to do before being worthy of being a prospect. 110609 what's it to you? who go blather from