regressing no reason it's happening, i think. again. and i am always aware that there will always be this back-and-forthness, but i haven't yet learned how to stop it. i'm too old. i'm too old for this. i can't even fit in my shoes. the worst part about it is that there are no words that have enough motivation behind them to be spilled. 050831 ... no reason lately i feel like the invisible/uncool kid in high school. i keep finding out about birthday parties i'm not invited to, held by people i'd thought would invite me. 130530 ... no reason at least when people don't invite me to their weddings, i don't have to buy presents. 130530 ... dafremen Blessing in disguise. Always better to find out sooner, rather than later, who your real friends are. 130530 ... Phil Things are pretty green on this side of the fence. Guess I've gotten used to it. 130530 ... Raina back to my "lower" ways trying to fight looking for the breadcrumbs I left 130530 ... Raina still fighting. pushing against the tide 170112 what's it to you? who go blather from