if_the_world_is_ending amy nada i should be investing my time and resources in some sort of end-game. however, if it's not and will not, i've got, like, 8000 years. but only this tiny lifetime for this particular time, which should not be engaged in an end-game, but a reworking and resetting of all that might have come previously. not materialistic at all, but still growing from a material base. hopefully, i'm done with trauma-doctors, though their lessons should still be resonating and not taken for granted. time and resources should, rather obviously, go to science. and, to also mention, if_the_world_is_ending, i'm still suffering some sort of betrayal, if not of life, then of principles. if this is true, then i still need those trauma-doctors. because i'm female and tied with life, not protecting life, like a male. responsibilities are more or less clear to the male side of things, and betrayals are obvious to the female, when dependencies are a requirement. correspondingly, it is far healthier to cut losses, believe in reincarnation, and deal on the scale of, like, 8000 years. but one musn't wither away, succumb to entropic processes. a pagan likes, even needs, to be judged, and thus the plot advances and we head into the future. 091204 ... minnesota_chris let's eat some hot wings 091209 what's it to you? who go blather from