giving_up
faint
the
empty
space
between
the
fill
of
time
the
cross
knowledge
how
it
ends
dissapointment
and
emptiness
absurdity
and
desperation
lacking
and
wanting
and
giving
up
020321
...
Jarec
i
just
feel
like
giving
up
nothing
is
going
right
and
who
cares
if
it
would
go
right
anyway
?
it
all
sucks
and
i
just
want
to
die
,
but
hope
is
a
fucking
bitch
and
keep
on
nibbling
on
my
ear
hope
is
the
devil
,
keeps
you
miserable
and
keeps
you
moving
i
still
havent
had
time
to
just
lay
down
and
cry
myself
to
sleep
....
021116
...
celestial
i
quit
021117
...
limanne
Came
close
today
-
Close
to
giving
up
.
The
rain
was
unrelenting,
Nor'eastern winds
bit
at
my
ankles
.
High
heels
, unpractical
but
appropriate...
What
kept
me
from
giving
up
?
021117
...
celestial
perhaps
the
hope
that
things
will
eventually
get
better
?
021117
...
Lime Rider
i
would
never
give
up
hope
.
maybe
that's
what
wrong
with
me
030107
...
amy being difficult or is my life too hard
If
i
lose
this
job
i
will
understand
why
and
i
won't
inordinately
blame
myself
but
i
will
still
give
up
on
life
for
a
little
while
.
I
will
have
no
choice
there
will
be
no
one
and
nothing
to
hold
me
up
-
the
holidays
are
very
lonely
for
me
not
a
single
xmas
party
.
But
I'm
used
to
it
by
now
,
it's
just
that
the
evenings
by
myself
are
becoming
more
and
more
difficult
.
Oh
well
.
I'm
sorry
.
I've
always
felt
shunned,
and
I've
never
been
able
to
overcome
it
.
Too
scared
to
walk
into
a
bar
by
myself
,
too
sceptical
of
people's scepticism
to
try
at
all
.
It's
been
a
really
hard
year
.
A
year
of
(
painful
)
progress
however.
I'll
be
ok
things
have
been
far
worse
.
151220
...
nr
i've
heard
a
lot
of
people
say
it's
been
a
hard
year
this
year
.
or
maybe
people
always
say
things
like
that
.
but
maybe
it's
something
about
the
year
that'll
go
away
in
2016
?
we
can
only
hope
.
151220
...
raze
after
fighting
for
seventeen
years
to
stay
in
this
house
,
i'm
not
sure
i
want
to
be
here
anymore
.
i
don't
think
things
are
ever
going
to
get
better
.
there's
a
decent
to
strong
chance
they'll
get
worse
.
i'm
just
tired
.
of
all
of
this
.
240614
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go
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