bizzar raze it's so good to see you here on these_red_pages. i remember reading your words on blue way back in the long-ago times. i hope you decide to stay. i think we've got a pretty special little community of people writing on red right now. and i think i can speak for everyone when i say we'd love to have you here. it always makes me happy to see an old friend. i know we don't know each other, but even the 'skites i never interacted with feel like people i've laughed and raged and cried with. and thanks to the magic of blather, they're never far from me. everyone who's ever been here is still alive in the words they've left behind. 220221 ... Bizzar raze. thank you. dearly and from the depths of my heart. I share your feels about the skites from so many years ago. blather has always been a place that feels like coming home. and so many of you feel so very safe. I have recently realized that these types of online communities are where I thrive. I have recently discovered twitch, and I returned to blather yesterday because a conversation there brought my brain back here. I talked lovingly about blather with my viewers. and I want to stay. now, to work blather into my routine so that my adhd brain doesn't yeet it out of existence again. 220221 ... epitome of incomprehensibility Welcome to these_red_pages! I love what you wrote on "grief" but ache to think of all that went into it, if that makes sense. On a lighter note, your mention of Twitch reminded me of a weird thought I had: "V. in my Vedic Sanskrit class has such a gamer chair! I wonder if she streams on Twitch." A "gamer chair": because that's apparently how I think of those high-backed, padded black_and_white chairs - the sort of athletic-looking ones. Anyway, here's a warm burgundy welcome-back-to-the-blather-world from another ADHDer! 220221 ... Bizzar ahhhhh it is always so refreshing to find another same-brainer. thank you for the warm welcome. 220222 ... tender_square what you wrote on "dream" today made me cry. you render the most painful moments with such beauty and reverence for living. thank you for being here, for sharing your words and your heart with us. 220302 ... Bizzar wow, tender_square, i am so moved by what you wrote here. i've never known my words to be powerful to others, so i feel very humbled that they hit you that way. thank you, and everyone, for witnessing me. 220303 ... raze i love how you just took a blathe about clutter and bent it into something beautiful with the words you carry in your heart. i'm really glad you're here. 220417 ... Bizzar raze, you have no idea how good that felt to read because after i posted last night i got worried that folks here are going to get tired of my love sick confessions lol. again, thank you for your kind words and for witnessing me. getting this stuff out helps me immensely. 220418 ... raze random question (that you don't have to answer if you'd rather not): when is your birthday? i ask because i like being able to wish 'skites a happy_birthday when the time comes. i'd love it if we could all do that for you on your birthday, just to let you know we're thinking of you and we love having you here as part of this red_family. 220430 ... Bizzar aw, thank you so much, friend. it's really great to be here among all of you beautiful souls. your eyes on my words mean so much, honestly. it's 7/11 :) 220502 ... raze happy_birthday_bizzar (belatedly). it's so good to see you here. 220713 ... Bizzar ahhhhhh raze thank you so much. i am always glad to be here, and so glad to see all of you always here too. it's so comforting. i will always be here, even if i go a few months or even years in between posts. i always try to make it part of my routine, but it always slips. but it's comforting to know it's here when i need it. 220714 ... raze i just wanted to say that your kind words mean so much to me. i wish i had something more meaningful than "thank you" to say. but what you've said about feeling seen works both ways. thank you for seeing me. thank you. 220719 ... raze i can't pretend i've been through what you have. but i want to throw this out there, for whatever it might be worth: if it would ever help to talk — about anything — to a glorified stranger who considers you a friend, my email address is on the "gmail" blathe. you don't have to make use of it. i won't be offended if you don't. but if you're ever struggling and you need someone to lean on, i have strong shoulders. 220810 ... Bizzar thank you, raze. that means more to me than you might think. i am ok, i am safe. most of the time i manage. there are just dark days. and i am learning to accept the fact that there probably always will be. 220810 ... tender_square "reverence" and "im_falling_farther" have seared me, bizzar. there is so much passion in your words and they resonate with me so entirely that i feel like my soul has been peered into. thank you for giving a voice to your depth of feeling; it's beautiful to witness and you capture purely and completely. 220826 ... Bizzar i can’t thank you enough for this, tender_square. really. I came here tonight to write my pain. and this made my soul feel just a little bit lighter. i am so thankful for you all. 220903 ... raze i hope you're okay. or at least as okay as you can be. we'll always be here to hold your heart when you're hurting. 221005 ... raze i came here to say what i just said above, without realizing it had already been said. i wish i had words that would help to take some of your pain away, if only for a moment. 221107 ... raze (you've been missed.) 230927 what's it to you? who go blather from