ive_done_all_i_can_do so fucking lost and i can't help but wonder if i did too much. there are fires in my head and the whole world is burning down 030918 ... ashmanzhou and its never enough so damn you i can never quite match up to your quota never make your dreams live not ever to me so dont say sorry just go away abandon me to myself leave me to be alone screwed up in the corner dark and drab marred and scarred forever im sorry i didnt mean to say those things i could say its not my fault but it is something so seemingly small exacerbated to such size overwhelming me trying to be someone but invariably reduced to nothing dead and gone forever the person i was i am lacking but i try in vain for your attentions i could say they lied as well but they didnt i am as bad as i forever will be 030919 what's it to you? who go blather from