bird_mad Doar sorry I didn't respond in the past bro... trying to keep the struggle inside....it always escapes. Thank you. i hope the same for you, skinning the knives edge. Stay safe my friend....stay true. . 111110 ... Doar you have been, in your writing, the closest experience of my past. something i am trying to forget, but i will never forget, so i will take these experiences from those i respect and meld them into my own. 111110 ... birdmad trying to forget is only a sure way to grind it further into your memory i've been discovering this the hard way over the last 13 years or so 111110 what's it to you? who go blather from